For those of you new to this WordPress site, this site is about me and my writing – and a little about my role-playing, as well. It gives readers a chance to sample my work; and gives me the chance to say a little about the genesis of each novel, or about the process of writing in general.
Tapping Into The Darkness Within: Sometimes I am almost consumed by the darkness inside me, at self-destructive part of my personality which I carry around with me, and which I will carry around with me for the rest of my life. At those times I could wallow in despair, or o could actually try and use the darkness as a creative force. I try to choose the second option.
I try and let my depression power my poetry. I get a lot of bad poetry out of it. But it does help in exorcising my darker emotions. Sometimes, too, I get some piece of poetry which is not too bad, and which I feel that I can stick in one of my collections. But there is no way in which anybody would ever want to read everything which I have written, when powered by the darkness within. Nobody wants to read poem after poem on depression, darkness, and suicidal thoughts.
Writing is, of course, a distraction away from my personal darkness. When I am being creative I tend to forget how I feel, at least for a short while. It becomes all about the words. Writing is therapy, at least in part.
Some of my writing is, I guess, very depressing. But I try to limit the darkness breaking out in my words. I try to limit it to my poetry, rather than my novels or my short story writing. I don’t moan about being depressed on Twitter. Please shoot me if I start doing that.
Sometimes, when I am trying to exorcise the darkness within me, I will hit a purple patch, and I find myself writing poem after poem, and not just about depression or suicide or stuff like that. No, I knock off poems about all of the injustices of the world which concern me, whether how the Irish were treated in the past, or the futility of war, or kitchen sink murders, or whatever I feel driven to write about.
Despite that, though, I would rather not have this depressing darkness in the first place.